Composure

Yesterday I had that moment all aspiring writers have.  “Why I am doing this?  Am I even any good?  Am I just indulging myself? Should I even bother sharing my work?” I allowed myself some time to reflect on this, to ask the question without a furious search for the right answer.  Instead I rememberedContinue reading “Composure”

My full time job

“What do you do?”, you say I know what you want to hear – I am a this, I am a that, I am employed, valid, salaried, PAYED As you are. You want me to make sense to you. You want me to be part of the world as you know it. Yet my fullContinue reading “My full time job”

My Bank Holiday and M.E

Some days I just want to sit under a tree. This is the Bank Holiday day we always dream of but very rarely see. Powder blue sky, lush green trees at the height of their vibrancy, parks full of string bikinis, string vests, local boys impressing local girls with too-loud music, bare stomachs and alcopops.Continue reading “My Bank Holiday and M.E”

Reblog: From a fellow M.E warrior. Listen to her roar!

Today I am angry, not just mildly displeased or irked but gut wrenchingly, blood boilingly, fist clenchingly, teeth grindingly, word spittingly, ear steaminlgy angry and try having all of those things going on whilst your trying to be articulate. So do I have 5 minutes of your time? Will you indulge this tantrum and […] viaContinue reading “Reblog: From a fellow M.E warrior. Listen to her roar!”

The place where words don’t work

“The place where words don’t work” This powerful line is one of many exquisite literary morsels that I uncovered in Donna Tartt’s novel The Goldfinch. This particular phrase, a good hundred pages in, was one I particularly savoured, even with its ironic bitter aftertaste. A place where words don’t work. Why would someone who worksContinue reading “The place where words don’t work”

This is YOUR life, live it well

Back in Primrose Hill.  My body is still fizzing from the acupuncture treatment. What a curious sensation it is.  Pain and pleasure mixed so well together that you cannot distinguish the two.  Like the sudden relief from the explosive release of a sneeze which itself often comes with a side of discomfort. That lovely sensationContinue reading “This is YOUR life, live it well”

Something old…

Today has felt like one of the “old days” as I am tired.  Almost jet-lag like tired.  Rather than push through my intuition told me to rest today today. For the shop day off to be my day off too.  Well…ish. Rather than the old days where I’ve either been tired from HR work orContinue reading “Something old…”

Golden 

I saw my M.E friend today. Not just saw but witnessed her in her magnificent glory as she said “I do” sparkling in gold from the inside and out. Glowing from growing a child, a long held dream, and shining with love for her new husband.   We had the briefest but a poignant momentContinue reading “Golden “

The Gratitude Dance

I had a boogie last night. Doesn’t sound particularly postworthy but for me it’s what a dear friend and amazing coach calls a “shining goal”. Dancing has always played a huge role in my life as a symbol of both freedom and merging. Not that I am particularly accomplished, or trained, just, erm…enthusiastic. Starting onContinue reading “The Gratitude Dance”

A little more

More of the same Little Capricorn today. More work on my crystal shopping list and two further Astro-Rocks sessions. It’s all building nicely. And the welcome return of physcial energy. Not that I went out running or anything dramatic.  More a feeling of strength and the ability to do some chores. I have been hereContinue reading “A little more”